Tiny Comebacks to Health

A short essay to the Beginner within

Not all healing looks like a morning smoothie and a workout (that used to be me :) Sometimes it looks like crying into your pillow, then texting your acupuncturist, homeopathist, dermatologist, psychiatrist, or a therapist to see if they have an opening. Maybe healing is about finding a teacher online that you really resonate with, or committing to walking 5 minutes each day. Maybe it’s taking a break and focusing only on your sleep, or only on nutrition, or only on your relationship and/or family.

This is about the tiny efforts it takes to make your way back to yourself, not the self you used to be, but the one you’re choosing to become. Your higher self. And that’s what MADRE is about. A soft gentle return guiding you back to your feminine power through the quality of your life, movement, food, and spirit.

(from the archives: I look forward to making small comebacks at the rings)

Lately, I’ve been making tiny, intentional efforts to come back to myself—my health, my mindset, my soul-care practices. I say “come back,” because I don’t want to use the word healing. Maybe it’s an unfolding, a becoming. I’ve enlisted at least 9 medical providers the last few months, people I genuinely believe are masters of their craft—from homeopathy to acupuncture, dermatologists, to nutritionists too. It’s been a wild ride the last few of months.

There were moments I buried myself in my pillow, scared and unsure. But even in the worry, something inside reminded me: There’s nothing to fix. Nothing to heal. Only layers to gently unfold.

(I’m now eating meat again too but this was a pretty plate :)

And now, on the other side of some of that fear, I can see it more clearly: this journey isn’t linear. It isn’t clean. But it is perfect. My soul chose this path. I’m just here to lean into it. To learn. To feel. To keep showing up with a bit more grace each day.

As my heart raced this morning because of a daunting interview, I told myself “I’ve been here before. I chose this. My soul chose this. It’s okay” and I started to breathe gently and felt better after 45 minutes. It took a long time but at least I was calm and ended up pretty calm.

The joy and ease I once had in doing things hasn’t been here lately, hence why I went straight to my pillow a few times and cried. The tears were gentle. It’s been a lot. That lightness I used to feel in the everyday has felt heavy, distant at times. But the mindset? Still here. The passion for writing, for wellness, for spirit-led living? Still burning.

And I just want to make sure I say this because it matters: from someone who is still very full of vitality, yes, there was a small decline. I noticed it. I felt it. And now, I’m making adjustments. I’m not giving up on myself. I’m just taking longer pauses than I’m used to and moving very slowly. And that, for me, is a big deal. Because I’m used to going fast. I’m used to pushing. But this time, I’m choosing presence over pace.

I was lucky to find Nadia, my skin mentor. Someone who sparks joy in a way that nourishes not just my skin, but her artistry and her business. Because that’s what I’m learning: it’s the spirit that needs nourishing most. The rest like skin, energy, digestion, and mood follows.

There’s a kind of playfulness that can exist even when you’re drowning. Even then. A small spark of light that says, Keep going. And that’s enough to take one more tiny step forward.

I’m beginning again. Slowly. Intentionally. As a student. As an advocate for my own wellness. I’m treating my body, my skin, my life with a higher level of importance not because I am broken, but because it matters.

I matter.

You matter.

There is no decline in our health. Only comebacks. Only transformations. Only beginners being brave enough to begin again.

So here’s to slow, tiny efforts. To the spark returning. To showing up in life with vitality.

Where can you show up in your life more fully, more you, for YOU, and precise with what you need?

Start with small adjustments.

Start there.

With love and certainty,
Aranzasu
@madreglobal

Remember you are not just a resume
you are the whole universe.
stay radiant, stay resilient 🌸