(Here with my beautiful sister-in-law) 😻
P.S. My amazing brother and sister-in-law, I love them both so so much were in town for my cousin's wedding and this gave me so much renewed energy! This is us at the Santa Monica Pier on a beautiful majestic evening walk. And we also got to go to the rings together with my nephews and family. These are moments I treasure for a lifetime because I literally see him once every couple years!
I am just popping in to say hello and see how you’re doing.
I'm on the bus right now, I figured riding the bus would give me a chance to do creative things again, like write you on Substack again.
It’s been quite a ride (the last 4 years) but I choose to see easy right now in everything. Easy at work when I’m feeling overwhelmed, and when everybody is anxiously paranoid about putting out another fire, I do my best to block out the energy right now.
I breathe.
I center myself and repeat “this is easy.”
I’ve dealt with bigger life threatening challenges in my life. This helps me center myself again.
Around this time 3 years ago, I was getting a job offer after 7 months of travel to various other places around the world. I also had around 16 interviews with people in my current company - they take their time to pick good people, but I also took my time to pick them. Because I know how good I am and how hard I work ⭐
It took me my whole lifetime to give myself credit for my resilience and my skills. Better late than never!
As I breathe into this statement, I realize that denying my greatness is not appreciating God’s gifts. I pour my heart and soul to every new venture and adventure. I’ve been head down in my career and my dance projects that’s why you don’t hear from me but I want to be more head down in creativity than my job.
And writing to you is therapeutic.
I was amazed for the incredible opportunity extended to me to work at my current company. Apparently it's very difficult to get in, I had no idea. I was just having fun , thinking it was a great opportunity to have conversations. Throughout the interview process, I felt like a hippy fairy, discussing topics that were far removed from finance, and I was convinced that my unique perspective might not be what they were looking for. But I enjoyed the connections.
While they deliberated on their decision, I spent my time, cycling, dancing with the world-renowned company 'Global Dance in Motion' and swimming in the ocean, feeling free to share exactly who I am!
To my surprise, after a total of 17 informational and formal interviews, I was told that I embodied the company's culture. During these interviews, I openly shared my values, work ethic, love for nature and dance, and my passion for life. It was a liberating experience, and to know that these attributes resonated with the company was the cherry on top.
My passion for life and my unique experiences are recognized and appreciated here and I found a place where I can continue to be myself and grow. Yet, amidst the heavy volume and hours, it’s easy to forget why I accepted this job opportunity so this is a great reminder…I'm just here to learn, grow, and be of service.
I am right in the middle of a busy book of business as well as the end of the year season but I’m thriving. I have to tell myself I am thriving even when I don't feel it! Because…I’ve had some low points where I’ve felt bad for mistakes etc., thinking that I just wasn’t cut for this but I’ve turned it around. My mindset is stronger and truthfully, the only thing that I care about right now is how I treat myself. I have to stay positive or else things don’t go as well.
I choose to see the blessings in EVERYTHING and 2025 will be even better.
I experienced burn out and chronic fatigue roller coasters, but I’m looking to re-start my passion for health, fitness, and spirituality again - one task at a time. I didn’t know I was burning out but I couldn't find the energy to do things I love to do: like working out and I wasn’t consistently sleeping well. It felt like I had 2 full-time jobs the last three years so now, I’m looking to create more space for deeper creativity, family and friends.
I’ve proven myself enough and now I have enough skills and industry knowledge to work remotely, take care of my health, and feel like me again…today, I choose my health and emotional well-being above everything else again. The demands of this job didn’t tear me apart, they only made me stronger…strong enough to know that I don’t need it.
I didn’t realize I was loosing myself in work and the late night dance rehearsal were a terrible combo too, so I’ve let go of performing and now I’m dancing in other creative ways where I’m not up late and dancing around my unique busy schedule. I’m very much enjoying this! Freestyle shuffling…with music I pick and when I decide to dance, with no pressure.
Hope you too re-commit with me to prioritize your whole wellness before something creeps up…let’s be proactive (together) about our health. I look forward to being a more relaxed beautiful woman.
Are you doing anything different to shift/prioritize your health? Please let me know.
Happy November almost December!!
